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08:24pm 19/04/2006
 
mood: crushed
Hey

So…nineteen days since he broke up with me. Its stupid, I can’t even write his name. I even find it hard saying it in my head.
There is so much I want to say about how I feel about it, so much to say about things that have happened and that I’ve thought and dreamt about since my last post.
I feel…. nothing. Yet I feel every emotion I’ve ever felt at the same time. Love…hate…anger, self-loathing…I got to the point where I hated everyone including my closest friends and mum. I feel lost…blank, empty, worthless and most of all scared.
Every time the phone rings my heart skips a few beats…and for the first time I can say that…and actually know how it feels. It’s like when you were a kid; swimming…and you’re in the deep end of the pool. You just touched the bottom and there’s this thrill rushing through your body and you want to tell everyone what you just did. Then as you turn back to go back to the surface it gets hard to breath…and all you can do is hold your breath and kick your legs really really hard until you get to air. And you keep kicking and kicking and kicking but you don’t seem to get anywhere…and you can’t breath, it’s like this desperation to go tell your parents that you just touched the bottom of the pool turns into desperation to get out of the pool, and when you finally do…you feel like you don’t want to tell your mum and dad anymore. It’s just not important.
Every time I get home from school, I’m half expecting him to be sat on my bed…looking glum with guilt at what he threw away. Not me…us. Ready to beg me to have him back and explain what the hell was going through his mind?
I still check my phone every five minutes…its out of habit but also I have a tiny ounce of hope that what happened was just a bad nightmare and that I’d have a text starting with ‘Good morning baby=]]’ or ‘hehe ure so cute…’
Even when people sign into MSN and I see this little orange box pop up in the right corner of my eye, I look just to see if it’s him.
I hate it when he’s online…all I can see and feel is ‘why aren’t we talking about the weekend? And why can’t I mean what I did before? I feel pathetic writing all this down.
I hate it when he isn’t online. I just want to know where and who he’s with, is he laughing? Is he upset? Is he kissing and holding another girl and looking at her the same way that he did to me?
I never really realised how truly utterly unbelievably amazing what we had was until it ending. It’s so sad. And sometimes I think, I wish I hadn’t fallen asleep that time I wish I had kissed him that time I wish that the time I did this I’d made it last longer…although I guess it would only make things worse.
When I wake up he’s the first thing I think about… “ He’s asleep at the moment…’’
When I go to bed he’s the last thing I think about… “ I wonder if he’s thinking about me’’
Actually I wonder about everything…
How did he react when he went back to his room…with my stuff here and there…the first time he’s been alone since it happened?
When I sign into MSN is there anything telling him to talk to me like he used too?
Does he have ANY amount of regret at all?
Does he…see couples in the hallway, and miss the stupid little couple type things that we used to do?
When he sees something that may have a connection with me…like Spiderman or those from me you bears, what does he feel and how does he react to it?
I know how I react. I can’t look. I feel sick, I feel alone I feel more worthless than I ever have done before in my whole life.
I feel like…I have nothing left.
Sure I have friends and I hold them all so close to my heart, they really mean a lot to me. But in five weeks time…I have to start all over again. Go to a new school with new people and try and put on a new face. Perhaps pretend to be something I’m not just so that someone understands me.
I can’t imagine anyone understanding me now. Not a new person, they would have to know me and know my life and history with the friends and people I’ve spent the last few years with.
And…. before I didn’t mind leaving Hayesfield so much. Because I had one thing in my life that I thought would stay the same. Him…
I’ve never been someone that accepts change very easily especially when it’s not me that is making the change…
I mean, a whole new life. I can’t decide whether that’s a good or bad thing… it could go well but then again…me vs. a load of scene kids never really did work did it? They hate me.
I guess that doesn’t bother me though, I know that I still have my real friends and if they really are my real friends I can call them and see them when ever I need too.
I just…miss being apart of what for me felt so right…even though we had began to argue to be it only made my feelings stronger for him.
I know for a fact, right in the back of my mind I know he wants nothing to do with me, it isn’t breaking up with me that he regrets it’s meeting me in the first place and going out with me. Only my heart and body just don’t seem to accept it.
Every time I see his screen name … ‘I’m not worth any tears’ or maybe if he’s pissed off I can’t help but wonder if it had anything to do with me at all.. I wonder if he’s pissed off because he feels he’s made a mistake. I mean I KNOW I totally know that in his life, now, I’m not worth a dime I’m not… like I’m not even a line in the last chapter of his book. It’s like he’s forgotten already the time we spent together and the only memory he is left with is the money that he could of spent on himself.

I honestly don’t understand how a boy that seemed so in love with a girl, a boy that I thought wasn’t anywhere leaving me, could just…Stop. And forget in seconds what I consider to be my whole entire life…and what I considered to be the only thing that held me high when everything around me was falling.
In my eyes me and him could have been stood at the top of the twin towers when those planes crashed into them and at the end, after all the panic and fear and tears there would be me and him, still standing amongst the rubble in each others arms.
I thought we were infinite.

It’s stupid. I can’t even write his name. maybe that’s because he isn’t Nathan anymore.



I know I have to get on with my life but I can’t find a life to get on with.


“Fuck, I can’t let this kill me
Let go…
I need some more time to fix this problem
I need some more time to fix this problem
I need some more time to fix this problem
I need some more time to fix this

I’m talking to the ceiling
My life just lost all meaning
Do one thing for me tonight
I’m dying in this silence
The last star left in heaven
Is falling down to earth and
Do you still feel the same way?
Do you still feel the same way?’’



Im leaving this Public becuase I don't care who knows what about me. If its wrong for me to feel the way I do then fucking help me.
 
     

(2 hickys | bite me)

 
   
10:21am 05/04/2006
 
mood: crushed
Hmm

Well Nathan is like...perfectly fine. Even though Smitt said he isnt I can tell that he is.

hmm I really wish he was hurting, I know that sounds gorrible but hey I do.

Theres just SO many questions always running through my head like......whats he doing? whos he with? wheres he staying? how is he? whats he done today? is he falling asleep ok?....even things like has his brothers GF had the baby yet? and hows his mum? corse the major one is ''is he // has he thought about me at all?'' and ''does he care if Im ok?'' pfft stupid girl

Urghh.

I texted him last night asking how he was and his reply was

'gd u'

he didnt even bother to put a question mark this makes me think ''cunt'' tbh.

Im leaving this as public cause I dont care who reads what atm
 
     

(bite me)

 
   
02:47pm 02/04/2006
  Nathan broke up with me because he cant afford to see me anymore.

and thats what he calls 'LOVE'

How do I feel?

worthless..hurt...alone.....like Ive been lied too.....like Im nothing in my life is ever going to fit and that I may as well kill myself.
 
     

(bite me)

 
   
10:01pm 17/03/2006
  I have enjoyed today SO much.

Fucking about with Jess and T = amazing and just makes all this horrible weight go away and makes me feel like Im a human being again instead of just 'am'


I love today:D
 
     

(bite me)

 
   
08:29pm 10/02/2006
 

Comment my last fucking entry.

 

help me =[

 
     

(4 hickys | bite me)

 
   
10:11pm 07/02/2006
  Life - Gurghhhh.  
     

(bite me)

 
   
08:17pm 26/01/2006
 
mood: angry
Gah I feel like screaming!!

Family is pissing me off MAJORLY.

Like just being around and bothering me when Im tryng to work, why cant they just FUCK OFF.

I want to scream 'cunt' reallllly loudly but it would only make things worse.


Urghhhhh Jo was Off school ill today, first time in like 3 years lol So it was a bit weird without my side kick. but Yasmin was in school so I was trying to make her as happy as possible =]

n me n nathan argue EVERY fucking night =[

Andy wont talk to me again cause he ''wants to get over me''

just everythings being SHIT and I still wanna scream. Or just cry but then Id feel weak



-SCREAMS-
 
     

(4 hickys | bite me)

 
   
06:08pm 10/11/2005
  I miss you Tania  
     

(1 hicky | bite me)

 
   
09:41am 28/09/2005
  Rar  
     

(bite me)

 
*heavy sigh*   
07:30pm 20/09/2005
  I feel so fucking depressed=[

Just....empty, angry, confused....alone......worthless....like a bitch

Urgh I cant even remember what happened today...I cant remember anything. and No I didnt drink or get high......I just cant remember anything....


l i f e i s a f u c k i n g j o k e
 
     

(bite me)

 
Later days   
06:03pm 09/09/2005
 
mood: cheerful
Im off to a wedding (yes another one URGH!!)

Be back Sunday night me thinks, Lots of loves<333

Ali xx
 
     

(bite me)

 
   
08:27pm 04/06/2005
 
You scored as Emo. Your Totaly Emo!

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Emo

100%

Rocker, Mosher

60%

Skater

45%

Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev

15%

Prepy

15%

Trendy

5%

Goth

5%

What Group Are You? Chav, Rocker, Skater, Emo, Goth, Trendy, Prepy E.c.t
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........i hate emo:(
 
     

(bite me)

 
Requestness   
10:28am 02/05/2005
 
mood: crappy

 

Can somone make me a icon that says 'and for what its worth i still hate you' with a Picture of matt D screaming (from Funeral for A friend) ThanksCollapse )
 
     

(3 hickys | bite me)

 
   
10:05pm 27/04/2005
  So i just got my hair cut at tony and guy and i love it
its just below my sholders and perfect but thats only cause they used AMAZING product...
 
     

(bite me)

 
   
08:45pm 25/04/2005
 
mood: crushed
. First Name: Ali
2. Hair Color: brown but soon 2 be black and blue *hopes*
3. Middle Name: claire
4. Hair Style: POOF!!
5. Eye Color: BROWN EWWWWW
6. Height: 5'5 i think..
7. Birthday: 21st of feb REMEMBER NEXT TIME JESS!!
8. Zodiac Sign: er..:S i cant member
9. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: well you see all the guys and girls want me...but i just cant make my mind up..
10. Do you have a crush?: Only on Tania:P

Favorites
1. Favorite Animal: Dolphins i guess
2. Favorite Sport: sleeping
3. Favorite Colour(s): electric blue!!!!!!!!11
4. Favorite Friend(s): golly gosh Jo, kt Tania and Jess and Kier!! are probs my closedt cause I tlk 2 them most...but my favourite friend...my bed! but i love love lovvvvve all my other friends tooooo
5. Favorite Song(s): AT THE MOMENT : OMG BEND URE ARMS TO LOOK LIKE WINGS AND ROOKIE OF THE YEAR:D:D:D
6. Favorite Movie Quote: NO NO NO NO NO U DONT UNDERSTAND IM A TEENAGER I GOT PROBLEMS!!!
7. Favorite Store: hmmmmmmmmmmm mvc duh
8. Favorite Feeling:when ive just drank a mug of tea of hugged sumone that makes me feel loved

9. Favorite Shoes: my shoes from way back when i was small they wer so cool i miss them:(
10. Favorite Scent: hmm....petrol? no....roses!!! no....mmm hot guy? no MOSH PIT lol ewww B.O!!
11. Do You Wear Make-Up?: yes i do

12. Which is more important, personality or looks?: well can u imagen ureself with fat man? i mean he says some nice stuff to girls but EWWW!!
13. What kind of personality do you like in a guy/girl?: sweet when guys r like 'im scared of the dark' OMG I LOVE THAT!! and when ther like 'i wore this top cause it smelt like you' AGHHHH*cries with lonlie unwanted ness

14. Do you move fast or slow in a relationship?: duno
15. What is your idea of the perfect guy/girl?: no suck thing as perfect

16. Would you ever ask someone out?: No cause theyd say no so its a waste of breah
17. Do you prefer blondes or brunettes?: Brunette
Love, Life & Friends
1. What is the first thing you notice about somone?: figure and jawline and weather ther voice is really high
2. When's the last time you cried?: well i almost cried today but then i didnt:D so...i think friday?

3. What do you want to be when you grow up?: perfect
4. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?: no
5. Do you like someone right now?: I no this sounds weird but I don't know.. lol
6. Do they know?: Not even I know...so oviously yes
7. Do you have a best friend?: *shrug*

Do you like to...
1. Do you like to give hugs? yeh but i prefer to recieve them which rarely happens part frm tania and jess lol

2. Give back rubs?: it seriously sucks all the energy outta me
3. Take walks in the rain?: if its pouring like badly yes
4. Do you ever have one of those falling dreams?: no my dreams are worse *eep!!*
5. What is on the walls of your room?: posters, cds,photos,a mirror ..

6. When you chew gum, what etc..kind?: the kind people offer me
7. Do you use chap stick?: sumtimes

In the last month have/did you...
1. Drink?: NOPE!!!NOT FOR BOUT 2 MONTHS:D yeh im cool
2. Smoke?: no
3. Drugs?: no

4. Go on a date?: can i call it a date when me and too a my girlfriends have a girlie day out then go back 2 jays house and eat popcorn whilst watching the pokemon movie?
5. Go to the mall?: no:'(few years ago tht was
6. Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: ewww ther so groosssssss

7. Eaten sushi?: never
8. Been on stage?: yea when i was lil
9. Been dumped?: i think so..
10: Had someone unfaithful to you?: Jodie was and sarah:(
11. Watched The Smurfs?: hell yes!!
12. Hiked a mountain?: i went all the way 2 this par at the top of town once
13. Made homemade cookies?: nope:'(

14. Been in love?: i have no idea
More stuff.
1. Are you popular?: LMMFAO no
2. Are you pretty?: *cries*
3. What is your favorite word to say: oh shit,oh my goodness oh my goodness, with come with come!!



3 weird/random facts about you are:

1.If Im tierd i see spiders,black blobs and white cat tails
2.I love N*sync
3.the dark is scary!!


Of All the places you could be right now you would be: In sumones arms sleeping lol

Whats your biggest and stupidest phobia? DRIED FRUIT AGHHHH DRIED NANA!!! DK,A HGFOLV WEGLJ

One of ure dreams is:to have money and kids and a lovely person with me like Travis barker or seth..lol


Lots of Love Ali
xx
 
     

(bite me)

 
   
07:13pm 06/04/2005
  Lo havent updated in forever cause my comp died getting new one on wed. at jos i *heart* her shes shexie

later days
Ali xxxx

ps stevan vVVVVVV hot piccies ther:P
 
     

(bite me)

 
   
08:34pm 22/02/2005
 
mood: stressed
God I hope this works Every time i try to update its like nooooooooooooooo read only mode:(

so whats new? well tomorrow I have my 1st drum lesson whoo!!
and yesterday it was my 15th birthday...only two people that claim im ther best friend...kinda forgot...heh yeh Im well loved *sigh*


I got a new top from Jo,kt and Amy as a joint prezzie, it has pacman on it and it says 'bite me' hehe and kt also got me a easter egg lol yay!!
Jodie got me some realllly cool badges, Tania got me a cookie at school:D james got my SIX cream eggs and Andy got my a galxy thing. Andy also sang to me, the funniest thing ive herd EVER...and if i ever lern how 2 do a phone post thing, ill put it up here!!!!

my brother got me a phat mug for my tea:D and the rents are getting me a Zen micro thing.
yay!!

wow I have sooo much newz!!!

Leon might go out with kt*sigh* sam keeps txting me*faints* Im miles behind with all my coursework*dies*


So I havent been feeling all tht great atm lol.


but apart from that....no ones died!!!!!!!!!*touch wood*
deviant art is in read only mode aswell:( the internet hates me!!!!

So thats kinda annoying.


OMG thers a song called Falling outof love at this volume by bright eyes and i love it:( and also this song by the used called all tht ive got and stanied-outside lol...

heh man i need a life!!!!

Im so bored....AGHHHHH ENGLISH DRAMA AND MEDIA IN FOR TOMORROW:'(
 
     

(bite me)

 
   
06:39pm 28/01/2005
  fucking suck you fucking suck  
     

(bite me)

 
   
09:04pm 27/01/2005
 

180. Sometimes, I actually like my job.
181. I love animals, and have had at least one pet.
182. I love writing letters.
183. I haven't had sex with a lot of people, but I've had a really wide range of sexual experiences with those few.
184. I don't bleed, I percolate.
185. I sleep the entire day but am awake all night long.
186. My two children were born in the same month.
187. I like the taste of blood.
188. I do not know how to swim.

189. I know how to shoot a gun!
190. I am currently pregnant with my first baby!
191. I flew to another state when I was underage without asking/telling my parents.
192. I've experienced natural childbirth.
193. I am a HUGE "Sex and the City" fan.
194. I am currently experiencing physical pain.
195. I've lost time at work this week because my car was encased in an ice flow.
196. I'm looking for a new job that I actually like.
197. I am OCD about at least one thing.
198. I have a child named after a fictional or mythological character.

199. I have a pet named after a fictional or mythological character.
200. I have been paid money for my art.
201. I never ever tan. At all.
202. I still have at least one hobby that I had when I was a kid.
203. I can't stand to be around most of my family.
204. I have at least one plush toy that I think is cool but others find strange.
205. I am an avid Simpson and Family Guy fan!
206. I have a new kitty.
207. I like, like sumone but don't at the same time

 
     

(bite me)

 
   
01:59pm 24/01/2005
 

Bold means it's true, k?

001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more tv than I used to.
003. I love olives.
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own a home.
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games.
008. I've done something illegal.
009. I've watched porn movies.
010. I have been in a threesome.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. I like my handwriting.
013. I have acne-free skin.
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
015. I curse frequently. 
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. I've been to another country.
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. I'm really, really smart.
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
023. I love rain.
024. I'm paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now.
027. I love sushi.
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. I have fresh breath in the morning. - once I've cleaned my teeth, obviously.
030. I have semi-long hair.
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin.
036. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
037. I like the way that I look.
038. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
039. I know how to do cornrows.
040. I am usually pessimistic.
041. I have mood swings.

042. I think prostitution should be legalized.
043. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
044. I have cheated on a significant other.
045. I have a hidden talent.
046. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
047. I've been sexually intimate with fewer than ten people.
048. I am currently single.
049. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
050. I enjoy talking on the phone. (but only to certain people.)
051. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
052. I love to shop.
053. I would rather shop than eat.
054. I would classify myself as ghetto.
055. I'm bourgeoisie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
056. I'm obsessed with my computer.

057. I don't hate anyone.
058. I'm a pretty good dancer.
059. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
060. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
061. I have a cell phone.
062. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
063. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
064. I have never been in a real relationship before.
065. I've rejected someone before.

066. I currently have a crush on someone.
067. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
068. I want to have children in the future.
069. I have changed a diaper before.
070. I've had the cops called on me before.
071. I bite my nails.

072. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.

073. I'm not allergic to anything deadly.
074. I have a lot to learn.
075. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
076. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
077. I am very shy around the opposite sex.
078. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
079. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
080. I have been rejected by someone.
081. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
082. I own the "SOUTH PARK" movie.
083. I have avoided work to play on the computer.
084. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
085. I enjoy country music.
086. I love my best friends.
087. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.(no way!!dominos all the way!!)
088. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
089. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
090. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
091. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
092. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
093. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
094. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
095. I have dated a close friend's ex.
096. I'm happy as of this moment.
097. I have gone scuba diving.
098. I've had a crush on somebody I have never met.
099. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.

100. I play a musical instrument.
101. I strongly dislike math.
102. I'm procrastinating on something right now.
103. I own and use a library card.
104. I fall in "lust" more than in "love."
105. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
106. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
107. I'm obsessed with the tv show "The O.C."
108. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
109. I am an entirely different person around different people.
110. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
111. I think Ramen is one of the best foods in the whole world.
112. I am suffering of a broken heart.
113. I am a nerd.
114. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely.
115. I am left handed and proud of it.
116. I try not to change who I am for someone.
117. My heart resides below my feet.
118. I have had sex with someone I was not in a relationship with.
119. I enjoy smoothies.
120. I have had major surgery.

121. I have adopted a pet from the RSPCA.
122. I am listening to Radiohead right now.
123. Some people call me by a nickname.

124. I once stole a music stand.
125. I like pumpkin pie.
126. I love NASCAR!
127. I own over 200 CDs.
128. I work 7 days a week.
129. I have mono.
130. I don't have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
131. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humor.
132. I'm still in my PJs.
133. I'm looking for love in all the wrong places.
134. I have a tendency to fall for the wrong boys, or have them fall for me, so I can't help but reciprocate.

135. I'll try anything three times.
136. I've done drugs other than alcohol or cigarettes.
137. I'm having trouble sleeping.
138. I am a cuddler... (sometimes.)
139. I like John Waters films.
140. I have made a pornographic videotape.
141. Sloth is my favorite deadly sin.
142. One of my boobs is bigger than the other though not noticed by others.
143. I know all the words to the "Firefly" theme song.
144. I am abnormally obsessed with all things Buffy/Angel.
145. I love comfort food.
146. I'm a right-winged conservative Christian, and proud of it.
147. I'm Catholic.
148. I can walk a mile without feeling like I'm going to die over.
149. I am a college student.
150. I like to cook.
151. I hate vacuuming with a passion.
152. I'm addicted to photography and picture frames.
153. I have performed in the Rocky Horror Picture show.
154. I generally get along with my parents.
155. I like Shakespeare.
156. I like to sing.
157. I'll take the Pepsi Challenge any day, and STILL pick Coke!
158. I have things that I want to say to people, but I won't/can't because I don't want to hurt/be hurt by them.
159. I'm not "mainstream" when it comes to religion.
160. I've counted down the days until the summer.
161. I've fulfilled someone's dare at a party or gathering.
162. I challenge people to duels, and when I do, I mean it.
163. I was pigeon-toed at one point in my life.
164. I love Digimon and wear goggles to school.
165. I have been to an anime convention.
166. I constantly have my head in the clouds daydreaming.
167. I am addicted to roleplaying.
168. I was in labor for 30 hours with no pain medication.
169. I own more than three items of vinyl clothing.
170. I read hardcore Christian Bible Tracts because I think they're funny.
171. I hate to drive.
172. I'm unemployed but would rather sit on my butt and play video games than look for a job.
173. I come from a southern, highly religious family and have chosen to keep a major part of my life secret from my family for now.
174. I have a serious taste for older women.
175. I had a happy childhood.
176. I have an unhealthy obsession with certain child actors.
177. I am an only child.
178. I have more than five different lotions on my desk right now.
179. I have a more active online social life than IRL.

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180. Sometimes, I actually like my job.
181. I love animals, and have had at least one pet.
182. I love writing letters.
183. I haven't had sex with a lot of people, but I've had a really wide range of sexual experiences with those few.
184. I don't bleed, I percolate.
185. I sleep the entire day but am awake all night long.
186. My two children were born in the same month.
187. I like the taste of blood.
188. I do not know how to swim. (I can swim on my back but that's it :S )
189. I know how to shoot a gun!
190. I am currently pregnant with my first baby!
191. I flew to another state when I was underage without asking/telling my parents.
192. I've experienced natural childbirth.
193. I am a HUGE "Sex and the City" fan.
194. I am currently experiencing physical pain.
195. I've lost time at work this week because my car was encased in an ice flow.
196. I'm looking for a new job that I actually like.
197. I am OCD about at least one thing.
198. I have a child named after a fictional or mythological character. - I don't but I will
199. I have a pet named after a fictional or mythological character.
200. I have been paid money for my art.
201. I never ever tan. At all.
202. I still have at least one hobby that I had when I was a kid.
203. I can't stand to be around most of my family.
204. I have at least one plush toy that I think is cool but others find strange.
205. I am an avid Simpson and Family Guy fan!
206. I have a new kitty.
207. I like, like sumone but don't at the same time

 
     

(bite me)